What next

What a superstar blogger I've been, not a single post in over a week. I'm in Botswana and have been to about 500 different countries between here and Tanzania, have a look at my instagram pictures, 1000 words etc. I'll be home in just over a week, after two years of "finding myself" around the world, not really, after two years of trying to lose myself in three different continents, throwing myself into an array of different jobs and activities and tricky situations, just to see if I could get out of them, I'm pretty impressed to be returning home in one piece. This is turning into the post where I start reflecting and come out with some deep and meaningful things about life and who I've become and what I've learnt... so I'll just stop there. I thought after two years I'd be ready to stop running, but after a recent heart shattering discovery, it seems I'm not... India?